sketches of my life (:

yayyyyyyyyyy been very happy with life :)

2012-02-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

2012-01-04T08:38:00.001-08:00

CIVIL ENGINEERS ROCK! XD

2012-01-04T08:28:00.000-08:00

another updates.

2011-06-05T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllo! XD

Just as anyone in my state would do,i retake A levels Physics and Mathematics.It’s not that I am failing my A level yet the tariff points is so low that I couldn’t even live with it LOL. To be frank I am thankful for the results cos they do grant me a wake up call.perhaps my results are not satisfactory butt :P I am eligible to go for Higher National Diploma (HND) (i had been interviewed for civil and network engineering) now that I am retaking,I have to sit for 9 papers. Well it is not as severe as last year when I had 16 papers to deal with. I ditch Biology and see how much the pressure has lessened (9--------16?) near double! XP I have Physics P1 waiting to be shot on the 8^th and I haven’t revised yet........ the thing is I have become so lazy after the long break (since Physics P2 and P5) I have been going out and dealing with health problems (talking about it next)

For those who have known me for years,it’s just a rare to see me gaining so much weight or it just does not happen. I admit that I am skinny YET recently I experience drastic weight loss. Crap,I have no idea why..question is, does too much of sleeping actually burn your fat? I seldom exercise and even eat proper meals. Don’t you think I should have been gaining weight? I weighed 50 kg a month ago, 43 kg two weeks back, 41 kg a week before and 39 kg NOW. Having my BMI calculated IM UNDERWEIGHT L I have been aiming my whole life (literally since my high school year) to have my BMI normal and it never seems to happen T.T

CHIPA.CHIPA.

2011-03-24T04:39:00.000-07:00

just so you know,i am not an active blogger yet i feel like sharing tonight.it has been a hectic week i could say.Last Monday,i asked asha to accompany me.We went for Tutong Town.Not to forget to mention shaddy joined us two and unbelievably i was their ride :P we had dimsums and bought some dvds (i swore you wasted your money on dvds love!:p) Due to heavy rains and Tutong had gotten no more interesting places to hang around,i sent asha straight home.On the next day,i had breakfast with my grandparents well more or less a small farewell party for them.they had always been travelling when holidays were conducted,seemed to be happening every years (LOL,coincidence?) i was not that sure when were they coming back however,their absence would mean all their everyday routines like watering flowers,feeding their pets,switching and offing the lights would automatically be my obligations.(T.T) they lived near us so yeah it made sense. i never had done one since they left,i did not have any ideas who were my "hero" or at least i could guess that it could be my aunts,uncles or the housekeepers :P

proceeding to Wednesday! i woke up early and out of nowhere i felt like checking my phone up.my heart dropped when i received a text message stating one bad news and again went out to check things up.enough stated.Today was VERY TYPICAL.did daily routines and went up at 11+.i was so jobless that i counted the movie tickets i owned.I swore if i were to have a time machine,i would go back to the time i was about to buy the movie tickets and slapped the 'past syifaa' in the face.they were too many of them,too thick for my box to keep.it was just technically wasting money while i could just buy the pirated DVDs from any stores nearby! :(

2011-02-23T18:53:00.000-08:00

Courtesy of SyaerSyahi Photography.

2011-02-23T18:50:00.000-08:00

Congratulation cousin,Hyrun Nadhir Ismail
Courtesy of Syaersyahi Photography.

2011-02-23T18:46:00.000-08:00

"bah laju sini gambar sama babu" LOL.
Courtesy of SyaerSyahi Photography =)

Im engaged to shedy :)

2011-01-16T05:26:00.000-08:00

courtesy of Fatin Hadzilah my baby :)

Thanks to all who've come.

I am trying to set the rumour straight.

2011-01-10T05:20:00.000-08:00

I just hated it when certain people like to exaggerate on everything. After chains of conversation, stories or I must say facts get changed. Your big mouths should stop or the world would be all about lies. Peace would have no meaning and you ruin one’s life. Back to the point, having to hear myself about me getting married is ignorable in the first place.I keep holding on onto this fact that I am not gonna be able to shut people’s mouths. I would love to be judged though when you get it all wrong about me I guess you should stop.i certainly believe that I know myself better than you do. I have lost patience since you are acting as if you know it all offering me to deliberate on the consequences and stuff.I am eighteen,I would live my teenage life like ordinary people.I am mad,obviously,cause the statement you have made is So Wrong.I am not getting MARRIED.

Instead in like less than 96 hours,I am gonna be engaged to my boyfriend. People live their own life in their very own ways. No one has to follow your way of thinking cuz it’s just too shallow and costs less than cam ripped movies. Now I know my first impression about you is fallacious. The way you simply chatted about me show your lack of intelligence as well as dirty mannerism.

Hey ,well who cares if I am getting married at this age, oops I forgot. You are going to.

x♥ x♥

Anniversary ;)

2010-12-30T22:59:00.000-08:00

I love you syg :) ♥

Thanks for the good times.

See you later hihihi.

2010-12-24T08:27:00.001-08:00

I am currently using my phone to type in these stuffs.first,i wanna beg your pardon for any typo.lol.i tend to type in wrongly when im using this gadget T.T first and foremost i want to thank Allah for what has just happened.this is just a miracle..AllahuAkbar.perhaps every time you are thankful over someone's breakdown,people utterly criticize and you look bad.in my world,those people who are only able to judge,not having the problems on their shoulders are imaginary.having said it all,i honestly am thankful that my uncle finds out the truth and shouts at the man in his face.every single person in my family has known a man who actually has beaten a girl,an occasional liar,a stuck up and all these time standing for the relationship owing to the reason that he is a coward;having to confront all the family members when something bad happens.im happy that you are gone,Ad.

with love,ur ex sister in law :).
get a life
If you ever make any appearance at my house,i ll simply ring 911.

You deserve this.

2010-12-07T21:35:00.000-08:00

eye defect =( i have short sightedness!

2010-11-29T07:58:00.001-08:00

History:-

-i wore glasses when i was nine (that was the time when my visions got so blurry when i focused on far objects)

-didnt wear them often cause wearing specs were not cool and made me looked older than i was.

-My dad suffered from short sightedness and i guessed i inherited it from him.

-My vision went okay in time till i considered it to be normal.

recently there were times when i was focusing on distant objects and my sights got blurred.i was such ignorant that i didnt know my eyes were fatigued.I decided to have eye check ups not because that i realised my abnormality yet i was so excited to do so.i wanted to show my dad how healthy my eyes were eventhough i once suffered from short sightedness.(well yeah of course i liked to intimidate him,it was in the gene k) after a short while the result was printed out.....and it showed that i had suffered from a quite severe short sightedness.though it seemed like i needed glasses yet i was not going to have one.

i swear i would take in any forms of carrots till my visions are clear. IM A RABBIT. oh mee gosh.

=)

2010-11-26T04:08:00.000-08:00

dedicated to a friend of mine =)

2010-11-19T01:03:00.000-08:00

I ve missed u :) , Fatin Jais.

i just keep on saying this to myself "ur lucky to be in this situation,some might have been given the worst experience ever"

2010-11-17T22:07:00.001-08:00

honestly 2010 is a year of significant "life tutorial" for me.it is not called tutorial if it is not harsh nor heart breaking.i believe everyone does have the most saddening experience yet sooner or later,it teaches and guide them along the way. "burglary","Flooding","slanderers" and"abusers"are stuffed in 2010 of mine.uprightly, I break down and cry without thinking about the good consequences at the first place.it feels like i have been reaching the breaking point of my life and there's just no turning point to have all of these gone.The burglary happened in April where cash, jeweleries,laptop and many device's chargers were stolen.Only god knows how much the whole family were traumatized by the incident.We had insecurities in ourselves that living in our own home was no longer safe.You could never imagine how much both of my parents had protected the whole four of us,staying up late night till morning just to ensure no danger would harm us.Just a few days after the robbery,miraculously the thieves confessed their fallaciousness and were sent to jail after several court proceedings.What worried me most at that time was i had to sit for my A2 monthly examination and sickeningly i failed to organise good revisions.i remembered at my school where my biology tutor mrs laly asked me what was wrong and gave me a warm hug :'/ it was very motherly and i realised that i was not alone.she pleased me and made me believed that i was capable of handling the trauma.

"there's just no reason to cry,honey..look,there are many people out there who are not lucky just like u are..at least u and ur family are safe"

That was just another moment i would not erase from my mind and yeah i moved on.Not too long after moving on,another incident hit my family.After the sightings for the Eidul Fitri,we were shocked by the Flash Floods that occupied my grandparents' parlor.The kitchens as well as the washrooms were affected too.it was so severe that we had to transfer the furnitures to the unaffected area,the second floor.We did not celebrate Eidul Fitri and gathered there like we used to do every year.It was the most sorrow Eidul fitri i had ever encountered in my whole life.Everybody seemed very dull and only god knows how much energy,cooperation,cash and hard work were involved to have the house back like in its initial condition before the floods.Perhaps this was not severe as being slandered and back stabbed.It was humiliating yet i did not care and you you you and you,some of my cousins were just another envy,heart rot people in this world.I did not give a damn in giving all of you forgiveness and i guessed not seeing you guys would just make me feel much calmer and all of your sins lighter.Thank you for the fake smiles,fake hapiness we had shared all these years and all those artificial thankfulness to have me as your cousin.The intensity of pain i had for being back stabbed was just equal to the intensity of ache for having my sister being abused by that man live in front of my eyes.I was there,unable to do anything yet calming that Son Of A Bitch down.He's still with my sister and he is a great actor ever in my life.

I just wanted to pray to Allah to give me strength for any future "life tutorial" and use them as a guide to the correct pavements :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA REAL JOBLESS MODE haha

2010-09-19T06:16:00.001-07:00

poker with pinky,

2010-08-19T01:25:00.000-07:00

I am currently waiting for my results sent via a text message.

I am a physicist , i am a muslim

2010-08-11T05:32:00.000-07:00

Physics is inter-related with Islam.believe it or not,i ve been reading Wikipedia about Albert Einstein,Marie curie as well as Stephen Hawking.Clicks after clicks i reach the page listing out videos of Stephen Hawking.One of the videos is recording about his conversion of religion.He converts to Islam,reciting Azan thenceforth.it sends shivers down my spine,seeing him disabled yet still able to recite it with the help of a device.I keep on clicking on series of videos until appears a video that pulls my attention away completely.It proves that Mecca is the central part of the earth.The Earth emits radiation, having its initiator investigated it is evidenced that Ka'aba emits it.it is known that the radiation is infinite that it is still intense in Mars.Emission of radiation is known to be sourced from ka'aba and this strongly proves that it acts as a central part of the earth.

The question of Stephen Hawking converting to Islam keeps on haunting me yet i have this theory of mine.He is the Scientist to prove the existence of the black hole.I have heard about the Black hole sucking up everything,including light into it.none can escape,Hawking proves this theoretically and it is also found that his statements are true.An experiment is carried out with a magnetic field being applied,which results in its curvature due to the presence of the black hole.Quran has stated the presence,mayhaps that is the reason of his religion's conversion.

GP Multimedia presentation

2010-08-06T08:39:00.000-07:00

Honestly it was a last minute effort , i want to express my gratitude to my co-narrator , Ashadi.

Rest In Peace Jellypink

2010-07-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

Thanks to shaddy for taking care of her all these while.you will be missed jellypink :(

twas quite interesting yknow..........:D

2010-07-14T01:44:00.000-07:00

today i am learning the last topic of applications of physics,communicating information.it starts real awesome with some examples of old-fashioned audio systems (cause im pretty sure,today it is advanced) and yeah the first one, we gain information by hearing someone's talking.of course by means of air,sound waves etc.secondly, a simple machine via microphone and a loudspeaker,with assistance of magnets.lastly,slightly the same as the second one yet,amplifiers and Ariel are present.as for instance the radio.though these sound a bit sophisticated(no??) the information cannot be transmitted over a large distance.also, there shouldnt be many radio stations in a region because the waves would interfere with one another.

these can be solved by modulation.here comes the application.modulation allows carrier waves to have their amplitude and frequency altered by the information signal to carry the information.due to modulation,exist FM( frequency modulation) and AM (amplitude modulation).

FACTS : we pray,and our prayers are answered.this has something to do with the right tuning in modulation.( this is what scientists find out) i laughed silently in class. =P

the other one sounds ridiculous YET it's true.babies could see 'ghost' while we couldnt.this has something to do with the frequency and the amplitude of the light waves.meaning to say having the same light wave's frequency with the 'other world' , we could see ghost.our sights are damaged because of too much of TV.frequencies are altered in a way that we couldnt see 'the other world' HAHAHAHHAA FUNNY BUT I PREFER DAMAGING MY EYESIGHTS RATHER THAN SEEING THOSE CREEEEEEEEEEPY LOOKIN' CREATURES.

BORED TO THE CORE

2010-06-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

Blocks L and M

2010-06-23T07:17:00.001-07:00

Blocks L and M had been under control of Malaysia for nearly seven years. these blocks were located in Limbang,a small country which had been annexed by Chares Brooke, the white Rajah in 1890.from that year onwards Limbang remained as part of Malaysia.However,disputes over these two blocks occured recently between Brunei and Malaysia.it was because Brunei had found out that the locations of the two blocks were still under Brunei territory.it was then strongly supported by the UNCLOS,which showed and proved that Brunei was the rightful owner of these areas.therefore, negotiations were held earlier this year.it was then agreed that Brunei would fully took control over these two blocks and Malaysia would be benefited from the commercial yield for 40 years only.Malaysia was given the share on the grounds that they did the oil and gas explorations which led to the setting up of these two blocks.it was said that Malaysia had lost around 100 billion US dollars since they lost their powers over the blocks.

at least another story to be mesmerized,

Twas a bit awkward to type in this stuff yet yeah i miss my history lessons long back plus i ve been talking about politics since morning =.=

i still dont believe on david blaine's & criss angel's.i dont know why haha.

2010-06-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

hidden part of me ♥

2010-06-03T18:45:00.001-07:00

i just can feel it.truly,i am having problems these days.in terms of behavior and thinking.i am not telling this to anybody before 'cause i think i can bear it all myself , trying to stand on my own feet , solving my own complications.if i try to vent it all out to a particular someone, i am pretty sure he will come and comfort me yet i choose to hide and keep myself silent.i feel myself very sensitive at times and tend to be infuriated just because of lame jokes.it is like this heart has exceeded the term fragile ,yes to that extent.after all i have been through,i know i am wrong.this is just unjust to everyone around me.they are the victims, they do not know what sort of complications are attacking me,most of the time being blamed and become badly affected with my sarcastic statements.despite they know those are my egos , they are the ones seeking for forgiveness, consoling me and serving me with relieves.it has just crossed my mind, WHEN WILL THIS END? i am fed up of myself , being that bad, being so deserving hatred and selfish. i come to realise this will only happen if i change and stop, with the power vested in me,i know everything will turn normal and calm.everyone is not perfect,im not trying to be one yet at least one is having the will of becoming better. i believe every change is progress.

sorry is just the word.

Happy birthday love! :) ADI ♥

2010-05-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

I love you and may your will is heard and made into reality.

2010-05-06T21:28:00.000-07:00

i am truly not in a good mood.you pissed me off. BYE IMMA OFF.

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY DAD

2010-05-05T01:47:00.000-07:00

I appreciate everything you have taught and shared and I just want to tell you that you are the best! :) I love you Babah.

since last saturday =)

2010-05-04T03:40:00.000-07:00

Saturday , 1st May 2010

TRIP TO THE TURTLE MANAGEMENT AND CONSERVATION AREA, SERASA BEACH

- Every year,(not exactly) biology students were asked to do a project dealing with gene technology,mostly touching on crop plants and reproduction.unfortunately,this year my block was tasked to do biodiversity touching on extinction of species.after several discussions and considerations,we chose turtle to be our specimen.it was all so planned by us,we were left out by the teacher to organise the transport,call the authority there and send letters regarding our arrivals to THE DIRECTOR.after all,we managed to get there on saturday because of our willingness to not to be formally treated and greeted eventhough we had to face rejections of our arrivals ( SINCE THEY WERE REAL BUSY) .it was great though.we recorded,interviewed and snapped pictures.we planned to make the resources into a slide presentation/CD and share them with the whole school.hope we are going to make it REAL SOON.okay okay i am really pleasing my heart,MY TUTOR NEEDS IT TMR :')

Sunday , 2nd May 2010

xxxx Nothing much to be updated,went swimming with the fams and my apple xxxx

Monday , 3rd May 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABAH AND MY 'UNNAMED' TESTS 1

- Kay dad,going to make your birthday post right after these posts.you are way too special * iknow im propping up*

- I was applying to be a pilot under a company and was called for the tests yesterday and this thursday.frankly,my energy flunked out and my brain got worn off (perhaps TOO STRESSED up to have to deal with the fact that i am going to face my AS in days time and my pilot assessment like REAL SOON) due to these i skipped school on Monday. the tests took nearly a day and i went for a movie thenceforth with shady.

Tuesday , 4th May 2010

I AM SKIPPING MY CLASSES AGAIN AND MISSED OUT MY CERTIFICATE PRESENTATION COOLIE ME :P

- too exhausted to wake up and do every single thing i used to do every morning.(though it was planned the night before XD) lyinglying! gonna go to school tmr.regarding the certificate, it was due to my participation in the sixth form's english inter-school debate competition.i was representing SMSO together with Syafiq,Qilah,Syarifah,Ameer,Hadi,En Ru and Habibah.

SWIMMING AND GAAAAAAAAAAH! hdsjgsjxhdwjhdwahdahd!

2010-05-01T05:57:00.000-07:00

EXAM FEVER :O

2010-04-26T14:59:00.000-07:00

AS EXAM IS AROUND THE CORNER! haha 16 days mahn! SIXTEEEEEEEN :OOOO

2010-04-01T19:54:00.000-07:00

Appreciate them and tell them that you love them..before it is too late,when them no more in this world :D we never know what’s going to happen...death awaits and we re coming nearer to it as days passed by.

though when you are forced to love,let them die rather than knowing something which is pretended.

sounds so emo...yet true (:

beautiful crime.

2010-03-31T06:12:00.000-07:00

tomorrow i am having my physics' and Gp's tests.

point of information : then you should be revising like..right now?

me : would you rather die of revising the things you could not absorb anymore or live eventhough not even a pinch of knowledge is poured into your brain? honestly i would choose to live.it is not that i do not want to revise though the quantity that my brain is having right now is at maximum.therefore,it is useless 'cause when you exert on bigger force than it should be exerted,this would create high pressure which leads to bursting for instance here the brain it is.

point of concern : i think you are a bit exaggerating =.=

me : shaddap,im all stressed up.

point of information : so yeah,you really didnt revise?

me : accept the fact that my brain is fully "NOURISHED" right now.

point of concern : so how is it working? i mean err..your brain?

me : it works real well.the neurones are all still connected,still the electrical excitations are jumping,passing the synapses and reaching the brain flawlessly.

point of personal privilege : can i go home now?

me : get lost.

TALK CRAPS WHENEVER NECESSARY :)

HOLY-DAY

2010-03-23T05:39:00.000-07:00

it is not really a holy-day fullstop

i need to revise 'cause when school reopens i would have preliminary tests fullstop

assignments are stacking up (used to this,its a bit okay) fullstop

have to go to school tmr, 3 hours of butt-numbing debate tutorial fullstop

wondering when would i have free time to give asha back her pure maths paper fullstop

"the key" is lost fullstop

afraid that i might infuriate and sadden mummy fullstop

hoping for miracle to come to lengthen the holy-day fullstop

10-days of holy-days are not enough for preparations for the tests fullstop

is missing the lectures in college (effective ever rather than studying alone) fullstop

wishing that i would be able to revise Physics AS, Biology A2 and Mathematics P3 & P6 quickly and effectively fullstop

TO WHOEVER IT MAY BE CONCERNED.

2010-03-19T17:02:00.000-07:00

HEY SLUT!

WHY DONT YOU JUST WASH YOUR OWN FACE , AFTER SUCH LONG DEEP SLEEP? RATHER THAN CURSING, IT IS MUCH BETTER FOR YOU TO BE REFRESHED.NOT TO VENT OUT HERE FOR TOO LONG, MY BOYFRIEND MAYBE HAS BEEN ATTEMPTING TO ADD YOU UP , WELL FOR ME IT IS A POSITIVE THING , ONLY YOU EXAGGERATE IT LIKE A PIG CALLING FOR A SEX PARTNER.IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED BY MY PREVIOUS POST,IT ALWAYS AINT MY FAULT.WHY SHOULD YOU RAMPAGE IN SUCH A WAY YET IT WAS NOT DEDICATED TO YOU.FEEL SHAMFUL ABOUT IT BIATCH OF JERUDONG.SUCH A SENSELESS THING A GIRL AT YOUR AGE WOULD DO.I MIGHT BE REMAINING SILENT FOR DECADES THOUGH NOW YOU ARE INITIATING MY ANGER.I WOULDNT SEEK OR BEG FOR ANY HELP IF I HAVE TO CONFRONT YOU.NOT LIKE YOU,ONLY ABLE TO TALK CRAPS BUT MIGHT SHIVER OR SULK IF "LIGHTNING" STRIKE AT ANY INSTANT.YOURE WAY TOO MUCH OF CONTRAST TO ME.WELL,HE DUMPED YOU.YES HE DUMPED YOU.TRY TO LEARN AND LIVE WITH THAT FACT.IF YOU COULD CARE LESS,WHY SHOULD EVERY OF YOUR RECENT STATUS UPDATES TOUCHED ON BOTH OF US? LEMME JUST TELL YOU A THING,YOU'RE JUST A PSYCHO WHO IS ABLE TO TALK BUT NOT ACT.WELL I HAVE SOMETHING TO SHARE...SCROLL DOWN AND SURPRISE! FCUK YOU BIATCH OF JERUDONG =)

OOPS FORGOT TO MENTION THAT YOUR CURRENT BOYFRIEND IS MORE OR LESS LIKE YOUR SO CALLED EX.I HAD REMOVED HIM FROM MY FRIEND'S LIST.OHHH GASSSHHH HE WAS FCUKING ANNOYING.ASK HIM IF HE EVER SEND ME AN INBOX TELLING ME THAT HE DREAM OF ME??????? HAHAHAHA RUSTED BF YOU GOT THERE.WELL YOU CURSED,YOU ACCUSED AND YOU MAKE ME LOOK BAD.THOUGH THANKS TO YOUR BOYFRIEND FOR COMPLIMENTING ME LOADS =) MUCH LOVE.

"decent"boyfriend you got there =)

current situation

2010-03-11T00:15:00.001-08:00

after two days of relaxing,i am hit again with piles of assignments.these include compre (GnP),Biology (pending practicals and a set of inheritance homework) and lastly physics (the never ending assignment i assume).i am always hit by physic's homework incessantly yet it is at the least that i could cope along every topics.i would work things out and make sure that all of these BABIES are completed by tomorrow.i am pressurized so im not giving any glance at my homework,tonight.i'd rather go out and give mummy a company.i wanna live my life happily after doing the tiring school work for hours.my brain needs fresh air,my brain demands brief-emptiness and my lovey dovey brain needs me to be enthusiastic all the time in order to be actively working.all right enough of all that..i have just got my camera charged ^^, wanna capture some pictures of dad cycling later.hoping that my to-dos today would suppress the party in my head.i have been having headache these recent days and been sorting out solutions to recover.well,found one! :p sleeping for five hours after schooling does assist.it aint an upper hand at all anyway.time is wasted..others benefited in that hours of time..while me..not being productive and left behind.such an ugly duckling,me is.guess it's time for me to go now..mummy's waiting in the car..so yeah BYE <3

this assists , an alternative when you sleep in bio class.

2010-03-08T02:49:00.000-08:00

very random.

2010-03-04T01:00:00.000-08:00

GAINING FIVE KILOS =) i wonder where are my fats mostly stored at =.=

my style is "hijacked"

2010-02-18T01:48:00.000-08:00

before i elaborate more on the subject,let me just clarify that (in case you have forgotten) this is my blog.i own this blog simultaneously having the freedom of speech,here.

"them chicks are hijacking my style"-fergie

well yeah fergie,of course theyre copying you.youre a star,huge star.so there is nothing to be mad about.be proud.you are the spotlight , all eyes are on you.your everything is followed,you are the trend setter.after all of your hard work though sometime in the scope of singing is not considered at least you have something that might bring you up the sky high,your style that is.these are for your case but not mine.we are way of too much of contrasts.i am infamous,not even the world knows my name.i am just a girl next door without any influences yet recent discoveries clarified me that my style has been hijacked.it is pretty annoying to observe when someone looks like me from top to the toe.i find it very funny to see "another me".sister from another mother perhaps.walking side by side would be hilarious fo sure(except that you are twins, up to cheer leading or group perfomance,it might be accepted).i do not see myself as a trend setter but it is too obvious that my style is followed.please , enough is enough.i feel like i am always stalked by the YELLOW DIGI "MASCOTS" singing "always follow you" or "i want to follow you".gash,its effing annoying.it is better to stop or we would be looking the same ever.honestly,not only style but personality.go and invent your own style,not being my digi.

it's you,yourself,who decide.

2010-02-07T03:57:00.000-08:00

in this world we are living in,different people give different recommendations,doesnt matter if these are to be encouraging or draw backing.it is left for us to deliberate.if it happens to be hard to be judged,people well honestly I tend to go through the wrong pavements.these pavements possess foot prints which really could not be vanished by any way.once stepped,forever the walks,be in that direction unless deviations are to be there along the journey.unfortunately,it is seldom happening and i believe that it is the situation i am in now.

-hope that im gonna feel better tmr.

sunset.

2010-02-04T05:52:00.000-08:00

let's see some flesh! XD (re-posted)

2010-02-04T05:34:00.000-08:00

HOWS LIFE :)

2010-02-04T05:10:00.000-08:00

"life has been very busy",attended school for my senior year really is a big challenge.never been a day without any assignments given.to succeed,theres no use of whining yet theres just a need of consistency in studying.long back people managed to succeed so enough said everybody,could be successful.i guess ive been struggling this week,unfinished physics practicals (i do not know why my quality of result is not good enough,the circuit is already connected correctly though) mathematics topical tests (well WEEKLY I GUESS) and some other.all i could say is just everyday i feel like im stacked up with tonnes of steel.hopefully the weight is worthing or else i would lose all the guts,in vain just like that.

he went off to the beach..and....

2010-01-04T03:38:00.000-08:00

update update XDDD

2010-01-03T06:36:00.000-08:00

january the 2nd

me "body snatched" asha and planned to have some good times watching futsal friendly match.held at berakas stadium and shaddy was in.abruptly the plan of get-together-during holiday was interrupted by criminal , FAIZ naaaaaah i am not intimidated by him :p instead im gonna have to do some pay back.i would be seeing you tmr and ensure that you would pay for my noodles *LMFAO* or i would be persistent in attempting of kidnapping your girl LALALALALA.consequently, left only me and shaddy.we went to ahan thai for dinner , and toured Jerudong park.all in all,it was a great night :)

december , 31st

2009-12-31T09:23:00.000-08:00

i is officially ashadi's

i love you , superman :)

another day out with my superman :p

2009-12-28T04:45:00.000-08:00

initial plan : hiking at serang helang , swimming and go to syahi's karate tournament.
INSTEAD : hiking at serang helang , swimming at Berakas stadium , MOVIE and went to Muara beach.

p/s : SYAHI! sorry that we could not make it.perhaps the next tournament would do?

we went to tasek lama to hike serang helang! well it was amusing.i could say it was extremely sloppy and some parts were steep.yet hell yeah we managed to go down hill in time.thanks shaddy i learned loadsa hiking tips from you.before long, we went for swimming and someone was being an apprentice :p well he mastered it as he knew how to wade then.*rounds of applause , aleef! next was actually to watch avatar at The mall,the showtime was not desirable though. :( so we went for alvin and the chipmunks 2 , *prominent tagline : ALVINNNNNN! I AM NOT KIDDING.* overall i liked the movie though still SANTAU was persistent in my mind -__-' had lunch at ahan thai and once again at KFC.all right it made sense right? WE WERE STARVING.it was nearly sunset and we banged to Muara beach.had photo shoots and blah blah.shaddy drove me home then,after "bejaur sepanjang hari"-shaddy HAHAHA.truly, you made my day dear :D

day out XD

2009-12-28T03:53:00.000-08:00

wednesday the 23rd.

******
Shaddy : faa, what do you think of going out for futsal match tomorrow? im going to take part.
Me : WHY NOT ?? :D *thrilled*
Shaddy : gonna pick you up at two :)

******

obviously the initial plan was focused on the futsal match yet we did go to some other places thenceforth.*as always HAHA.the match was organized at IBB,bandar seri begawan.three teams took part,including the heaven team FC.all in all it was an escapade.consequently,we went for dinner at CA mohammad and the food was not bad.before long jack ass-ing struck our minds.of course,there were photo shoots.

*more photos on my facebook profile*

it's the time baby!

2009-12-23T05:22:00.000-08:00

aaaaaaaaaaah. ive been feeling enthusiastic throughout the week :D i did not expect that, been shocked by the most jaw dropping news only got me break down just briefly. well shut up.past , let it be.i just need to be strong to face this :) RIGHT.let's finish up the whines.haha.

at least,i wus brought out of this cave to the world i wus recently introduced to.i went out with shaddy for some dress hunting.before long we had lunch at big papa's and thereupon watched "santau" SANTAU GAVE ME GOOSEBUMPS! FCUK! we didnt miss to have a quick peek at The Mall =.=' DQ's SLRRRP :p it wus raining , and i guess it was already 10++pm though still we kept the ball rolling for jojo's cafe :DDDDDDDDDDD it wus fun having karaoke on the stage and stuff yet, i detested the smokes from the cigars.they just accumulated and made me smelled like living in a chimney for weeks :( well it all could be neglected when he sang,i mean shaddy :))))) eleventh of january's wus awesome.you just gave it a real kick honey! there we had the time to chit and chat ,shaddy,me,mirul,akram and .....*err i forgot the name,sorry* had good times.went home straightly at 1 am. well mirul you just gulped all the black ants! you made me laughing my ass off.

thanks for the joyful night,shaddy :)))))))

recent activities

2009-12-16T22:35:00.000-08:00

i had been very busy with cousin's wedding.the preparations were the main cause :p we had to stay at my grandparents' crib till late night.my parents were to help with the souvenirs and stuff.though,the preparations were all worth it since the wedding wus successfully carried out.also, loads of activities were organized and no doubt the families were enjoying them.all in all, "Selamat Pengantin Baru cousin, Bahreyn" wish your marriage would gain longevity and joyfulness.

i also went to a futsal tournament with my cousin and a friend.shakko you did the best and thanks for making my day,always :D

'Syifaa',expressed via pictures

2009-12-16T06:23:00.001-08:00

current situation : I AM BORED.
there's a side of me which you may not know.i really
am mean at some occasions.the look is spontaneously
exhibitted if i see something or someone i detest.or
probably at the time i am annoyed simultaneously
having the thought of revenge.
careful,i could be looking innocent though one
has forgotten what's hidden behind the look.yeah
i admitted that i am found to be having this look most of
the time,i guess.I TRULY AM NOT INNOCENT,fo' sure.
i love to smile.even hideously 'cause i do not really
care of people's thought nor impression.
i love being crazy.this is the best part of me.haha.i love
acting like retards and hell yeah i tend to stick my tongue out.

the girlfriends

2009-12-07T03:42:00.000-08:00

i miss all of you!

RESEMBLANCE?

2009-11-25T17:33:00.001-08:00

all right.simple does she look like me?

no more school XD

2009-11-25T16:49:00.000-08:00

today's thursday the 26th and it is supposed to be the last day of school.nevertheless,i am not favoring to go to school.perhaps you too,and i guess we have the same reasons for that(well this includes my colleagues only) really, im sure you feel the same way regarding the school cleanliness and facilities.right? they suck.indeed,the suckest or hell of a condition for students like us to adapt and live with.enough said.eventho i am not at the place where i should be yet i attended school during the sports' activities and stuff.so hell yeah dude im not losing anything,omitting an ordinary event that i would please to skip :) so i would just blog the thing that i found joyful much to be considered as my last day of school.(not today,surely)

the MPP organized the sports' events for stereotype like foot ball match,net ball and basketball.
unfortunately i blew to snap pictures or the pictures were of low quality and damnly blurred.(i am not a good photographer anyway)

i am wobbly which team did these MPPs were against. the thought of AJ to win was snowballed owing to the reason that the players were good team mates and the game was wholly strategical.i do not know which team could make it out in front though.

Adam lambert me love love love love love love :))))

2009-11-24T01:33:00.000-08:00

you're annoying.

2009-11-23T14:10:00.000-08:00

Good morning earthlings.now here i am awkwardly sitting on my bed facing my laptop's screen,typing.it's truly a rare for me to post a single thing at this timing.y know usually people tend to go for shower or breakfast,i am here insisting,to type though.

i feel like i wanna yell at someone and kick him/her in the ass and knock him/her down,and let him/her die slowly and painfully!!

things things things

2009-11-20T23:04:00.000-08:00

peeps ! i know okay okay , this blog slacked.eh wait I was the one who was lazy to post even a single thing in here.Now here i am,back, in the mood of blogging.allright,just to not to snowball your curiousity level it's all due to the hectic schedule of mine like i had to sit for examinations,family reunions..,thats all i guess.i even had to spend my own time alone and trynna recover from a serious devastation.haha how melo-dramatically expressed.well just to make you know,im feeling okay now.very,precisely.having our own time to get to know what we really want is worth it by virtue of the fact that none can jeopardize whatever ideas we are drafting or thinking of accomplishing them.i prefer my friends to be around though.all these days,they've been giving me their own personal opinions , therefore i am truly exposed to 'the thing',which truly demands good deliberations.it has always been successful,via that way.

*SPEEEEECH!

gratitude,expressed to :

Ayu Hanisah Amirah
Asha Nur Aqilah
Abdul Khaliq
Nurfaiz
Nurul Qamra Izzati

i'd been lost , honestly.nevertheless i could move on the right pavement subsequently, because of them.

pfffffffffffft

2009-11-04T01:17:00.000-08:00

it's really unacceptable to have the idea,that things happened without reasons.only losers are deceived by such craps.it is all made up for the sake of pleasure to those who couldnt handle things independently.it is applied to let them,the victim,to neglect the things and move on.consequences are what they do not really think though.mayhaps they appear and act like nothing has happened,nevertheless, mentally theyre some ill creatures that really demand and crave for truths.everyone seem to be egoistic nowadays that they really do not want any discrimination.as things are so called better then,the pain to be handled is snowballed.this initiates their feelings of unsatisfaction,and insist them to show some revenge.the anger,remains dormant yet it is going to explode anytime.severely if they do dormant it for decades.

wishing for good november

2009-10-31T18:40:00.000-07:00

cant take my eyes off these

2009-10-31T07:05:00.001-07:00

ASHA NUR AQILAH'S

2009-10-28T01:46:00.000-07:00

feliz cumpleaños !! sweet seventeen asha ! i love you ! youve grown taller and much hotter.live yer own life as the current ones , hoping for much better one of course (: may god bless you with good life as well as longevity.Good luck! chemistry paper waves LOL.let this seventeen confines to sweet muchies *only* hehehe.

HOW RETARDS ACT

2009-10-17T00:26:00.000-07:00

i could barely stop laughing my ass off since this morning.having to know that i was removed from an anynomous's account wasnt jaw dropping as well as eye bulging,pain pleasure though.emphasizing "pain pleasure",amazingly it was removed and gratitude spreadooo to that remover.at least,i would not be suffering nor devastated to see your updates everytime i log in.your lame post,dramatically-expressed homo posts as well as yer so called cool pictures had been vast devastations to my eyes and tummy to not to stop bursting laughs.had some flashbacks of how ya backstabbed us, turned hypocrite and even forgetting yer friends probably,against the fact that you were the one ditching,simply egoistic.i've vowed to myself not to keep in touch with ya despite we had planned to attempt to work out for better relationship.well it is simply your right either to remove or to retain us in yer facebook account by virtue of the fact that yer kiddo,yer totally neglected.STRESSING,we dont do such lame thang,cause we have better plan on how to attack and show some cruelty to anybody , well i can say including you slut.it was conspicuous that yer a coward-whory-bitchy-"cashier" oops! that you just simply chickened out and blouted the problems that you,yourself had caused.

my man

2009-10-15T03:07:00.000-07:00

JUDDDDDDDDDDDDDIIIIN !!! you're missed.you ass i love you.

VIDS VIDS.

2009-10-15T02:28:00.000-07:00

well i found this video.its the VMA cartoon , well yeah in reality, it was jaw dropping to see how Kanye acted on the VMA stage.If i were Taylor i ll just simply knock him off the stage.like that's gonna happen..in this vid you ll see something ADDITIONAL,i could say SUBTITUTES tho, that i predicted would be mesmerised , blathered and sang *hint hint MAYHAPS. "his hair smells egoooooooooooooo"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubqJ14QO1m4

the next one-yy is Mr.bones. ive browsed thru many vids before i found this tummy tickling vid.never laugh that much before.it was directed flowlessly i thought,that the movie turned out well by virtue of the fact that it was shooted in Indigenious village and never any flaw overthrow any scene,well at least,i can say as it is seen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5VbI3WusCM

happy birthday qam

2009-10-11T01:58:00.001-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday to my bestie,Nurul Qamra Izzati Othman.

youve turned eighteen, girl.i hope you do keep your words to take the driving lisence's test wimme! <3<3>nah i pray for your healthiness and happiness.wipe away all the blues,and work commitedly for the sake of your future.a thing! i promise! the T from me,ayu and acha aint that bad right? :D hope you'd like it.

weirdest thing

2009-10-06T02:51:00.000-07:00

"i woke up and thought that it was tuesday morning,i grabbed my school uniform and wore it till i dropped,having to make known myself that it aint schooling time" sounds simple,it conveyed the weirdest story of all though.yesterday had been a long day,it had me sleeping from 2+ to 6+ pm.despite shutting my eyes in that considerable period of time was a rare,i,frankly saying,i was satisfied to be all wrapped up in the blanket,resting.after all,it would have lasted long if this was not happening...

blinking my eyes frequently,as if there was some forces compelling me to wake up.i safely rouse my body up and had a peek at the clock.oh my,it was SIX mahn! i swallowed lumps of dismay,together with the feeling of worries,by virtue of the fact that i was late for school !!!!!!! everything seemed to be jumbling up in my mind,my bio presentation,physics revision and the ripen GP's work.these were enough to make me nauseatic.considering only my bio presentation,i phoned an associate,zyla,

"Zylll you believe it or not i sleep since yesterday's early evening till this MORNING",i stressed.
"What? well thats overwhelming",she calmly suggested
"in a sake of that , pardon me!! i havent done any of my slides!",i cried

she was VERY ACCOMMODATING on the grounds that she offered to do my work.i was pleased and we hung up.following,as daily as it used to be,i texted my boyfriend up,that time additionally saying that i was sorry by virtue of not texting him since yesterday.subsequently,i went for shower,got dressed with school uniform and headed for the kitchen.i asked my mum regarding the absence of my dad owing to the reason that i demanded for a ride.looking at me astonishingly she said,

"ASTAGHFIRULLAHALAZIM,are you schooling at this instant?this dark???"

i was speechless and obliviously,looking at my little brother laughing his ass off.feeling the phone's vibration in the pocket,i quickly made sure it was on my hand.it was a text from my boyfriend,reflected that he had no idea of what i was talking about and seemed to be ENTERTAINED by the JOKE.i'd gone moronic and went to my room to have a quick peek at my clock setted in the computer.HELL,DUMPS,SHIT,CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSS!! it was 6+PM :'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
realising a big mistake that id made,i called zyla again and elaborated on the REAL THING.she couldnt stop laughing and her laugh was even "SEVERE" after i claimed that i was showered and in school uniform.

I SWEAR I WOULD NOT SLEEP IN THE EARLY EVENING,AGAIN :'( my conduct is not long out from my family's blather !!!

my sweet seventeen <3

2009-10-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE! thanks to all who had celebrated my birthday surprisingly (: including families and friends! in two consecutive days i blew off the candles of my 17th's.id recieved two presents..:)...

this is from my cousin, Wadaah qatrunnada (: thanks!

this lil cutie beary is from my bestie Silymas Nurul Atikah (: thanks pasha!

i wanna express my gratitude just by praying you all good lucks in everything (: i love you all <3

P:S/ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEENA IDININ!

2-days workshop at yayasan secondary school

2009-09-29T02:28:00.000-07:00

we,some of the SMSO-ians including upper and lower sixth form students were to attend talks regarding the admission to the oxford university of london.the talks were all about guidance to a proper way of applying the scholarships.i could say both the presenters had clarified some complications that all applicants commited and made.it brought to vast and valuable understanding in applying.in the workshop itself we were asked,each one of us to write of our very own personal statements.it aimed for further exposure and conspicuously practice.after going over some progress,i made my very own personal statement which i found BRAGGING and SO-NOT-ME LOL.

here is mine,

I choose medicine as my course because ive possessed deep,genuine interest towards it.i excel in biology and physics that the tutors claimed that i could have improved with further guidance and exposure.learning the facts,applying them,researches as well as new foundation entice me a lot.these encourage me to be motivated to meet my demand.in today's worls there is a need of enhancement in terms of medication.competition is everywhere though still the best takes the place.i am to be at that place...BLA BLA BLA..*frankly,im lazy to type all that out HAHA

its not important anyway.talking about the school,i could conclude that the school was well equipped with facilities such as BOOK STORE,LECTURE HALL*tho there aint any sixth form-ers there,AIR CONDITIONED CLASSES*double central airconds,apparently a VAST AREA OF SCHOOL,MEN IN BLAZERS *stare natashia LOL and and..etc etc..we were even provided with food and beverages during coffee break and lunch.hmmpphh :/just remembered about my assignment ): 2 days aint attending any classes was like increasing the productivity of homework of 2 weeks time ): gotta off blogging now..

selamat hari raya aidilfitri

2009-09-22T23:06:00.000-07:00

I wish you all "selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin" have a great one this year.to all the greeters,thanks and y' all too enjoy your raya(s) and pardon me for any of my wrong doings.exam takers,good luck and all the best!

vacation, during the first term holiday

2009-09-19T08:24:00.000-07:00

-nearly-byebye fasting month

2009-09-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

time flies so fast that i couldnt even believe that i am now breathing in the end of ramadhan.in just two days time,the day of hari raya's celebration would be decided.frankly,i seem to miss every moments that matured me in either blissfully or appalling way,during this ramadhan.

i think for a fasting day,i spent 85% of surfing the internet.MSN,facebook,skype,youtube and DVDs-i did them for no reasons but to kill any boredom striking.all the applications tend to create cotroversional issue that usually filled my day.now i could interprete,when all these things are vanished,i would live blissfully ever after.
10% of sleeping.i slept late and for quite sometimes i woke up early.whenever i gained conciousness after sleeping,this hand reached my laptop first.and by blouting the time,i surfed the internet till evening.i did shower tho.my day initiated with laptop =.=" see how crucial it is haha.
5% of going out.i rarely went out like i used to.perhaps every of my dates were busy or i was the one who was too much of conservative *puke.naaaah,i enjoyed going out tho,not during this fasting month.it was just because of single-simple reason.I WAS TIRED THAT EVERY SENSE OF MY BODY WAS PRONE TO SEE,HEAR,TASTE,TOUCH AND TALK SIN :D

that makes my circle during a day complete.boring much eh?iknow.

ahhh sucha forgetful ladeyyyyh! i too,enjoyed the activities at school during this fasting month.you mayhaps were thinking something religious tho,my condolence they aint.hehehe.despite the fact that if i attended , probably i would enjoy :)indeed,i did hope for some repents.

there was a day,after-the-noon,held an inter-generalpaperblock4-debate.hehe sounded so petitful.yaah indeed it was just a small thing.i was one of the participants,functioning as an opposition.durhhhhh thristy much after all the ruthless projections LOL.kidding,syafiq *winks.i enjoyed the session and freshly,looking forward for the next debate session.*waves to ayu.

whutt else..got one! hehe it seemed to be my write ups are descending in accordance of their occurance.hehe.my friends and i celebrated ayu's birthday party at my crib.she blew her candle off logically after break-fasting and all i could say is just it was just an awesome night.

i love you izzuddin

2009-09-14T18:52:00.000-07:00

i love you so much.everything that we've gone through lets noble them as our guidance to much more successful bond <3

happy belated

2009-09-08T00:25:00.000-07:00

to : HANESA AMEERA

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY HUNN! sweet sour much.youve grown beautiful and mature enough :)

all i can say is just you always made my day and thanks for being my good friend,my bimbo and my soulmate *hehehehe.i love you,ayu :)
may Allah blesses you with good-lucks and loves.

hers was on the 5th.

hey you,whom i used to call "darling"

2009-09-07T23:51:00.000-07:00

p:s/before proceeding,dont feel this post offensive.id possessed too many darlings,anyway :)yet,later or just now,ive found out that they aint just "darlings" tho,some algaed-hairy-arses!

hey you sober,i know i was such dreadful,been dating you was contemptful enough to throw all the discomfort in me tho.i acknowledge that i ended it with unspecific or your used to call unclarified reasons,yet it was well-off much that i used some diplomacies.i barely or not even wanna compell you to feel any face-down-s!freshly,all the diplomacies,any sweet muchies or reminiscences , i guess were all burned to ashes and ditched on some dirts.youve transformed nuts,sick,sober and even street shitties who talk craps,most of the time.you think imma care for ya after all the toss??let me repeat,ive put much effort to have good relations with ya,lookin' at ya with lumps of dismay swollen,even trynna use tolerancy in handling your slur! tho you!! you!! you!! perhaps,neuronatically disordered,just simply insulted me with yer so called ruthless projections!

now, i merely give up for any shots in our relation.you are naught to me , and dont puzzle if i just brutally flout you in any situation.i hate you for all of yer reprisals.

distinct transformation.

2009-09-03T21:12:00.000-07:00

(captured via web camera)

see some distinct changes?
hmmphh despite you decline or agree , lemme just post what the so called critics and judgementals claimed.

"faa,you are getting chubbier"
reasons : this fluffy cheeks reflect that im a eataholic.for some occassions,they'd be looking like lackin in some nourishments.its a rare this cheeks bulge out , so you take your time watching the fluctuations of some weight of mine cause this bulging thingy is seasonal =.="

"faa,your hair....er..grows promptly.its huge"
reasons : dont ya know that this thick-nice scented hair is desired? durrh kidding xp yeah literally,people do grow hair swiftly if they do know how to take care of their hair.it also depends on the products you are using.its also acknowledged that your hair's size or length couldnt indicate the healthiness of your hair.to inspect any disorder HAHA or hair problems,go to your doctors to reassure the deficiency of dandruffs and infestments of lice :D

no offense luv hehehehehe.

outshined the other ordinary days.

2009-08-27T11:07:00.000-07:00

everything happened , yesterday.if a movie is made,your $5 (for the non original) would worth it tho,the scene would not be continous nor inter-related.yesterday,was desirable for others to experience and learn.my day started badly,when my dad and i were stucked in our journey to my school.driver's route was disrupted since there was an accident occuring.it involved two cars , seemed to be colliding which consequenced in huge impulse that crumpled the car,and the other was compelled to the side of the road.the queueing lasted for about 5 to 10 minutes for both,me and my dad.

during this fasting month,"inhabitants" of my school were likely to be less lively.HAHA well that was conspicuous.drained off and totally tummy-vacants.despite all of the obstacles seemed to be appearing,assignment was still given.honestly,every lesson,lullabied me and compelled me to doze off easily ^^, who was to be blame...the tutors were lacking in auras or i was the one who was a sleepy-maniac.

i arrived home and rested for a while.webcamming popped outta my mind and i went for one session with a friend.it was hilarious and damn it,i was bullied =.=".not a strange thing for a newbie of "some new thang" XD

for sungkai,i went to hafizah's crib.bought bottles of drinks and "assisted" in the kitchen.yeah exactly,hafizah and qamra served the food then i organised them.haha frankly i think that i spent most of the time,vaining *thanks to qamra's phone.the food met beyond our needs.i was full and incredibly,still my tummy wanted to digest those finger licking food.

i arrived home at 8++ and went straightly for bed.HAHA.too much food made my soul singing , lovely and all the blues were ditched and forgotten.thanks friends,you made my day!"syifaa you look like a japanese guy"claimed qamra.
-happened when i tangled my hair to the back,exaggerating much to be called pony tails.tied the hair higher with specs on.HAHA this is so true mahn ! hello girls *imma gettin' ya and treat ya some sushis ^^ lol.

all that i have been realising throughout my life.

2009-08-22T06:52:00.000-07:00

1.talents

-literally,talents are granted by god.they may have come in various ways either naturally or archieved.despite world is biased,taking some artists regardless of his or her talent,still,the surrealism seems to be developing.that questioned those who are more likely to deserve all the priveleges,to be like swaggy little fox walking on the red carpet.the industry is naught without all the papparazis,stalking the swaggy-(iers) which consequenced in miraculous fame,instantly.see how this is truely irritating?

2.desperation

-eventho we are desperate enough,still,we can actually sustain any temptations that arrived.this would only specifically work for those who are not a short tempered ,truely opposing me.frankly,ive came through this tho,i didnt manage to resist all the temptations.ive just apprehend that after recent failure and frustrations.

3.hours of sleep

-hmppphhhhhh,im not that well organised.sleeping aint my priority so i dont really care how much sleep do i get to activate me in the morning.

4.fighting sisters

-girlfriends,im not deceiving,i havent fought with bazla for like WHAT?monthss! HA-HA.its probable that its because of our barely-eye to eye-contact even we re living under the same roof!

5.lovelife

-love love love,all i can say is that im not ready yet,and hastens in relationship are killing me.

6.judgemental lil brother

-gaaaaaaaaad,its been months i havent spent talking to him like we used to before.and,freshly,he transformed judgemental.duh a boy like that?i sure you,once you are a guy,you ll behave like a perfectionist.*wud never get a girlfriend that instant.

7.you are unforgettable

-nearly two years of bonding,too much memories to be kept and borne :') i miss you.

i feel like wanna stab THEM right now!

2009-08-15T23:33:00.001-07:00

be responsible of what you had done and been doing! your conducts and replies hurted me so much ! durhhh sorry for the short post,elaborating here wouldnt make things better.

frowns!

2009-08-12T02:42:00.000-07:00

a thing that is utterly a demand of my routines,
an obsession that i couldnt decline,
more or less is,tranquil-(ator) of my mind and soul,
and ultimately,an endless devotion

towards you,my facebook :'D

day off with them.

2009-08-10T22:47:00.000-07:00

it had been a tiring week but all the blasts that i have had,compell me to be clarified that exhaustment is naught despite i ve known that im drained.

as a matter of fact,time goes so fast when we tend to enjoy filling it with exhilaration.last sunday,was the time that i underwent like elapsed promptly.well,who doesnt enjoy the time that we get,just to chill with buddss.hehe.back again,there were we,myself,achafaiz and qamraewen,grasping some fun,two days back.we went for west street and gi-joe,by which i could say for most of the times,i was greened by the sweetness exhibitted by both of the couples.so LMAO of me :D *too karing much.then followed by leaving for,empire.the main aim was in fact,to watch the sunset tho,it was interrupted by some shitties plan.haha saddeningly,the plan was PROPOSED BY ME xDD sorry to you all couples,perhaps sooner we could have just watch sunset not only at empire's shore indeed my own crib *winkkies! barbecueeeeee ^^, next time eh?

the excitement during that day,was undefined by words indeed,never good narrators could successfully narratored the stories well :p

thanks to achafaiz,qamraewen and hardy for the day that i have enjoyed most (:

to that negative-thinker!

2009-08-06T02:35:00.000-07:00

in this world as in REAL world,to succeed there aint such thing of what we call thinking negatively.we are adults now,mature in thinking,are capable of to borne all the temptations that come through our lives.its been a GREAT annoyance for me when you tend to complain exaggeratingly whenever,after you've completed all those tests.for such,the familiar,frequent tag lines that have always vented out from you are like "i know im failing" or "im startled that i might have failed" ! i might want to listen to your grief for sometimes.tho,NOT EVERYDAY HONEY! me too,ive got my own complexity that i must borne and solve ! its such a hell when i ve to,as in ASKED BY YOU,to listen to all of your frustration.a thing for you to CONSIDER,face the reality and suit yourself to things that are compatible to your very-own--one of a kind-appearance and way of thinking.

our minds are totally deviating and lead to positives.be like us,and you would not be that senseless (:

let the pictures elaborate.

2009-08-03T01:28:00.000-07:00

babah and mumy (:

abang syahi and me (L)

nadia and me (L) azam and me (L)

bazla and me (L)

1/went to grandparent's homie,here also,in sengkarai.like,metres away.

2/there,held an occasion for reciting of "tahlil" for relatives that had passed away.

3/lasted like two hours,the weather was hot and i was water-lacked.

4/followed by,chilling with cousins,playing some outdoors.

5/taking some pictures,hell thanks to datun! she editted those pics very well like pros.

6/home at around 9+

guilts and doubts.

2009-08-01T17:57:00.000-07:00

yes, i know ive committed an unforgivable mistake.even,i couldnt believe that i was committing it.intention? such a mother fucker would rather understand that i wasnt having any bad intentions.

rarely taking care of,bunches of late recieved messages in my inbox solemnly,making me feel extremely guilty.if you wanna get me what i deserve,you are strictly recommended,indeed,it is just only if you really a loser that had craved and begged for millions of "go-backs"

regrets conquer my innerself and i hope you could accept me the way i am right now,though,i am not an innocent girl,no more.

p:s/ lets move on.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD ABDUL HADI BIN EMRAN.

2009-08-01T17:34:00.000-07:00

it seems like my calendar is full of birthday events in the end of july and in early of august.though,i havent check it out.

dear Hadi bebeh manis alai labat,happy 18th birthday and may you be blessed (:
thanks for being such a wonderful friend*usually your advices brainwashed me a bit and they all work out* conspicuously,the man is getting his driving liscence soooon.for ya,drive safely and dont do MENGGAL ha ha.im looking forward to your treats either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow :D anyway,i tell ya,you better be equipped with mask or somewhat anything that could cover you up to the chest cuz your "langsing" would surely greet you a happy birthday!:D

p:s/ love you,buddy (: will upload some photos tomorrow.

recent webcaaaaaaam night haha.

2009-08-01T02:51:00.001-07:00

truth or dare was fun and truely exaggerating HAHA.thanks (:

belated birthdays :)

2009-08-01T02:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH AUNT AND COUSIN!

especially dedicated to Dayangku Nur Adlina binti Pengiran Duraman for her 40th birthday.thanks for being a very supportive aunt and sorry for the slightly late greet :) mm its been delayed since 5 days ago.bwahaha! treat eh? soon,i ll ask from ya.looking forward to see you.much love.

not to forget to Awangku Muhammad Al-kasyfi Afif Fadhullah bin Pengiran Mohd Isauddien :)
i have not been enjoying life with you preety well,more unfortunate is you are only five.you only get to mingle with kids age-ing like yours."it doesnt matter anyway,cuz you aint gettin' under this anymore" HAHA! "under what?" under my list of cool pipol who i tend to chill with haha!i love you kasyfi :) *his was on the 29th of july

pftttttttttttttttttttt EXHAUST-MENT OR NESS OR ISITY! wth!

2009-08-01T01:46:00.000-07:00

my energy really ran out or sucked in just snap!MINUTES! nowadays,i couldnt even missed to complain that i am tired of just climbing up stairs,walking from a door to the adjacent door,short-while-instant-walk from my room to my bath room,indeed,tired of waking up or somewhat lazy to gain perfect conciousness from sleep.seemingly,in just few future months i would get utterly unhealthy.this expectation is derived from my own behaviour,few months back.exercise??hmmmmphhhhh...not much to talk about,i just slacked on the couch,picking soda or fried stuff for lunch,pampering too much of my body(sleeping) as well as,ache-ing due to ways of dietary.in fact,the probability of me to gain weight is high ^^, if i belong to these breed,certainly, i would thank god!but still look at me,tall and skinny :S more or less like emaciated.i think ive got this dietary disorder or i am destined to be like this forever ^^^^^^^^,

filling the vacant.

2009-07-29T02:58:00.000-07:00

this picture is dedicated to you,you know who you are (:

whisk of boredom made me look like this!:DDD

happy birthday izzuddin 29!

2009-07-29T00:58:00.000-07:00

Izzuddin, Happy 19th birthday to you , love!

get through all the obstacles and rock your world in this 19th years of livin'!

despite,you've gone throughbits of pieces of exaggerating frustrations,im pretty sure you will succeed (:

here are some birthday candles for you to blow off (:

i know its been your routine during our relationship to sing this song,I dont want to miss a thing :)

I could stay awake, just to hear you breathin’

Watch you smile while you are sleepin’

while your’re far away dreamin’.

I could spend my life, in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost to this moment, forever

Every moment spent with you, is a moment I treasure

I don’t wanna close my eyes,

I don’t wanna fall asleep,’cause I miss you, baby,

and I don’t wanna miss a thing

‘Cause even when I dream of you,the sweetest dream would never do,

I’d still miss you, baby,

and I don’t wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you, feelin’ your heart beatin’,

and I’m wonderin’ what you’re dreamin’,

wonderin’ if it’s me you’re seein’.

And then I kiss your eyes, and thank God we’re together

I just wanna stay with you, in this moment foreverForever and ever

I don’t wanna miss one smile,

I don’t wanna miss one kiss,

I just wanna be with you,

right here with you, just like this.

I just wanna hold you close,

I feel your heart so close to mine,

And just stay here in this moment,for all the rest of time.

i wish we could be together like before,i miss you.

Love,im so sorry :')

monday blues or monday loose?

2009-07-27T02:48:00.000-07:00

today has been one of typical days of mine.woke up late,missed breakfast and the last one to lock the door.those who are familiar with me would give me this frequent impressions reflecting, "something pissed you off,syifaa?" "what the hell is wrong with you girl?" in every morning,specifically,school days.im totally used to those because i know i've got this "dull-looking,mean-looking" or whatever you wanna call it,expressed on my face particularly at schooool :D it doesnt convey anything anyway KEKEKE.

okay,today is monday and it sparklingly started with block one-my private study.it used to be my favoured period,not recently,though.then tick tock tick tock , booooooom! physics' period.gaaaad couldnt really explain how sleepy i was.my eyes were watery and most of the time,i tried to bring mr.chu's eyes off me by pretending to concentrate(enlarging my eyes and stared the white board,sharply)to be in mind,not my hands! hehe.i drew on a piece of paper and acted innocent(hadi saw this :D)

after biology,i was supposed to learn GP and as the very-very-very usual,my tutor wasnt around.so we,(the students) killed our boredom by revising (gossips.playing computer games and most were listening to the music) we were good student arent we?(: whistle pleasee?

p:s/we had missed a lot,i guess.

great annoyance!

2009-07-24T09:13:00.000-07:00

.PIPOL , when we were in the middle of sleep,sleeping beautifully,having some breed of what we call sweet dreams and abruptly, some POKLENs texted you up with all the X's and the TOH's,dont you feel truely irritated?? I DO! no one could ever disrupt my dreams nor my sleeping duhh!plus plus the repeating sounds of MSNs messages simultaneously,sending those uncool words,burden my ears up! even my sistaa in the next roooooom would never be daring to interrupt my sleep so neither POKLENs who are hundreds metres away,could just simply kick me outta those sweet dreams uuurghh.sleep well POKLENs and tomorrow please,please and please go back to your nurseries to learn how to spell words correctly.

farewell to an irriplaceable friend,samia

2009-07-24T03:36:00.001-07:00

first,went to jolibee to gather with friends.conveniently speaking,the oppurtunity to gather with all of them was hardly experienced due to some reasons(we go for different colleges,etc :]).sam was there too.after we were done chit chatting and stuffs at around 8+.unfortunately,sadly,irritatingly,(it's utterly undescribeable to visuallize the sadness) sam had to take off (for KL):(.some of us cried(excluding me cuz i had cried the day before xp) and,we kissed and hugged her goodbye :).

Left the airport at around 9+ with akmal,ayu and acha and went to gadong for movies.i watched drag me to hell and it was **cking hilarious !!by means of the movie title,it was supposed to be Horror-ous and full of factual's!but it opposed all the criteria,could you believe that cows have the probability to be posessesed by spirits???(as in talking cows)haha well,it was part of the story.then,followed by chilling at the coffee zone for half an hour(if im not mistaken) and went home straightly after 12.34 a.m.

(pictures taken before she'd left)

still a green blogger :p

2009-07-24T03:18:00.000-07:00

na na na , not that 'green' to be honest.before,i used to read others' blogs also.i left tags and sometimes even stalked :PPPP so no displeasure (:

sketches of my life (:

yayyyyyyyyyy been very happy with life :)

another updates.

CHIPA.CHIPA.

Im engaged to shedy :)

I am trying to set the rumour straight.

Anniversary ;)

You deserve this.

eye defect =( i have short sightedness!

=)

dedicated to a friend of mine =)

i just keep on saying this to myself "ur lucky to be in this situation,some might have been given the worst experience ever"

SELAMAT HARI RAYA *REAL JOBLESS MODE* haha

poker with pinky,

I am a physicist , i am a muslim

GP Multimedia presentation

Rest In Peace Jellypink

twas quite interesting yknow..........:D

BORED TO THE CORE

Blocks L and M

i still dont believe on david blaine's & criss angel's.i dont know why haha.

hidden part of me ♥

Happy birthday love! :) ADI ♥

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY DAD

since last saturday =)

SWIMMING AND GAAAAAAAAAAH! hdsjgsjxhdwjhdwahdahd!

EXAM FEVER :O

beautiful crime.

HOLY-DAY

TO WHOEVER IT MAY BE CONCERNED.

current situation

this assists , an alternative when you sleep in bio class.

very random.

my style is "hijacked"

it's you,yourself,who decide.

sunset.

let's see some flesh! XD (re-posted)

HOWS LIFE :)

he went off to the beach..and....

update update XDDD

december , 31st

another day out with my superman :p

day out XD

it's the time baby!

recent activities

'Syifaa',expressed via pictures

the girlfriends

RESEMBLANCE?

no more school XD

Adam lambert me love love love love love love :))))

you're annoying.

things things things

pfffffffffffft

wishing for good november

cant take my eyes off these

ASHA NUR AQILAH'S

HOW RETARDS ACT

my man

VIDS VIDS.

happy birthday qam

weirdest thing

my sweet seventeen <3

2-days workshop at yayasan secondary school

selamat hari raya aidilfitri

vacation, during the first term holiday

-nearly-byebye fasting month

i love you izzuddin

happy belated

hey you,whom i used to call "darling"

distinct transformation.

outshined the other ordinary days.

all that i have been realising throughout my life.

i feel like wanna stab THEM right now!

frowns!

day off with them.

to that negative-thinker!

let the pictures elaborate.

guilts and doubts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD ABDUL HADI BIN EMRAN.

recent webcaaaaaaam night haha.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA REAL JOBLESS MODE haha